WHEN THE CALL AND DESIRE PIVOTS
It’s been over a year since I’ve written a blog here, for a good reason. I have been feverishly working on the biggest creative project I have ever undertaken; birthing a book that I have had a desire to write since I was 15 years old.
I started with rambling off one-page Microsoft Word docs roughly between the ages of 20-24 and officially decided to start the book when I was 30, when the pandemic forced most of us into a pause & an honest wake-up call.
I stopped again for a few years, picking it back up when it was clearly communicating a desire to be a priority in 2022. Little did I know a lot of the material and teachings that needed to be in the book happened between 2020-2023. Jokes on me thinking I knew what I would be writing about back in 2010.
I have newfound respect for anyone who has written a memoir. It’s brutal and painful to write. Truthful and heart-wrenching. It offers the gold mined from my pain. It also pours deep joy and gratitude into my heart as I observe who I once was and who I have now become.
Next to my book baby, I want to share with you what transition has taken place in my business & my work.
Some of you reading this may have initially found me through the wars of anxiety. I started offering my gifts by supporting clients to come out of chronic and debilitating anxiety, get their life back, and go on to experience a life of more ease, greater grounded-ness, presence, repaired relationships with husbands, mothers, children, the capacity to feel joy, have the greatest sex of their life, move to where they had dreamed of moving for years, travel on their first solo-international trip, drive through tunnels on the freeway without panic attacks.
It’s been an absolute honor.
And towards the end of 2024, my work and who I desired to support shifted. While I wrestled with the transition for months and months, I’m finally ready to let you know what lead to the shift.
I have fully bloomed beyond anxiety and the identity tied to it.
My identity that was once so wrapped up in a state of being crippled, debilitated, victim-minded, power-less and held back from living, has dissolved. My body has cleared so profoundly, my resonance has shifted and my next evolution called. With the shift in me, came a natural shift and evolution in my work and who I dream of helping moving forward.
My story and the reason I do what I do will never change, but the specific calling we’re here to serve evolves as we do. The book I’m writing is closing the final threads of my own war with chronic anxiety and it holds great teachings and healings for those who do desire to overcome chronic and debilitating anxiety without medication. As I have spoken of many times, chronic anxiety with no other cause is often an indicator of stored unfelt emotions and wounds, which we must hold space for and feel, to clear the way for our next step.
You see, what I have always known and further realized through supporting others, is that the highly-sensitive creative woman experiencing chronic anxiety, is often experiencing the exact symptoms, emotional states and sensations that are inviting her to clear what needs to resolve, so that her innate gifts and true self can take hold and rise, which leads me to sharing with you what my evolution is.
My work and my body has evolved to now support the heart-centered, highly-sensitive woman who wants to live a light-filled life from her hearts calling, her service, her mothering, her craft and artistry. The service-based entrepreneur, founder, mentor, coach, healer, intuitive, yoga teacher or facilitator who desires a blooming into her truest self and wildest dreams.
My work is for the heart-centered woman who wants
to feel lighter and lead with ease
to enjoy slower peace-full mornings as she grounds into her day and drinks her morning tea
to create space to make more money in her purpose-led + heart-centered business
to return to her innate creativity & joyfully start the creative project she’s been delaying
to dip her toes into the soft warm sand while writing the book she’s always dreamed of birthing
to speak more confidently about the magic she does directly to camera on her Instagram reel and in her sales & email marketing
to feel at ‘home’ in her precious body
to be ‘seen’ and ‘known’ in her witchy magic & gifts
to design her business & life the way she wants to live it
to live in more states of simple presence & peace
because to be honest, THIS is the type of inner success that matters most before she dies.
I have heard too many stories of powerhouse women and entrepreneurs who have made a lot of money, are deemed ‘highly successful’ and influential by societies standards, only to live in a chronically dysregulated state, shutting everything down after a number of years, feeling a low-grade dullness, drained, disconnected, lonely, and like something bone deep is missing.
The thing that’s missing, is what I support you to have, it’s what we’re all aching for.
To feel alive.
To feel free.
To feel a pulse of contentment.
To feel connected to ourselves & others.
To have access to ripples of joy, inner peace, and greater presence with ourselves, our loved ones, and the life that is directly in front of us.
We are designed to marvel in awe at the bees pollinating the flowers, the ebb and flow of the ocean waves, the feeling of the wet dirt crunching beneath our feet.
We are designed to roll down grassy hills, climb trees, play with our pets and children, tickle our partners, swing in a hammock under the trees, and feel the very nature of what being alive actually means.
We are designed to sit in the sun for hours with friends, family & elders sharing enriching and cup-filling conversation between cups of tea and warm meals
We are designed to gaze at the fire and dance.
We are designed to make art, write, paint and sing.
We are designed to feel
Feel our emotions
Feel our body
Feel our wildness
Feel our magic
Feel our power
Feel our love
Feel our SELF
In the end, this is what will contribute to a life well-lived. It’s not in the excessive shopping, the facials and fake nails, the private jet, the daily monotonous exercise class, the over-indulged breath-work & ice baths, the luxury car, the lavish Bali villa or the million dollar mansion.
It’s about the inside.
It’s about you.
Which is why I’m now supporting heart-centered women to walk towards her Blooming.
All the details for how to do that, here 🌼
